Wednesday, December 21, 2022

Embers

We spend our human life

in a state of delay.

Always fitting in the joy,

rarely fitting in the play.

With our passions as bookends

to our morning, noon, and night.

We struggle just to find the hours

to keep our soul alight.

Hating half the clock face,

just a moment in the whole.

These seconds are our freedom,

but it's burned down to the coals.

So we blow and we blow,

feeding life back to our souls,

and we marvel at the glow

that's left. 

Sunday, December 18, 2022

Time Dulls

Isn't it crazy

how we are haunted by memory

when the last thing we want

is to forget?

And it doesn't matter

how much you distract

how much you think you regret

You'll still be haunted

by pain fading slowly

with an end you'll still forget

Tuesday, December 13, 2022

Holidays

Just when you think that you're okay 
You're reminded that they're gone
So used to making that annual call
Now there's no phone to call upon
Not even an excuse to hear their voice
when the ringing comes to a close
Taking in that simple message
Every word a fragrant rose

Not this year, not ever again
no "Please leave a message" 
or "I'll get back to you when"
Nothing left but memories
and phantom notifications
Mental reminders to call them up
on all the important occasions

Monday, December 12, 2022

Shores of Regret

the Beach is Solitude

the Ocean is Sorrow

the Waves are Suffering

the Sands a Prison

the Tide a Respite

and Perdition

the Sun a watchful Apparition

the -b l i n d i n g- Truth

a -s e a r i n g- Judgement

Gripping Guilt

and -s i c k l y- Torment

my lone relief from the scalding Beach

the Waves of Grief, the Dams they breach

and some -m e m o r y- of what could have been

a foolish Wish to start again

Friday, December 9, 2022

Historian

Hyper focused and pointed like a sword tip

Obsessed with Discoverie, a thoughtful guilt trip

Possessed with a hunger deep within my brain

Do I dive head first to drown out all the pain?


Retail therapy in the form of knowledge

Collecting so many I could start a college

Digging so deep but only handfuls of fresh dirt

I could own them all, won't make me forget the hurt
                                                  make me an expert 

Time Traveler

 I feel like I'm telling me a story

A mundane slice of my life that bored me

But now it's precious and gold before me

A treasure chest of words from the old me


He's a younger man; So fresh, so bright eyed

He has all these plans; All of which would die

Not a single hobby shared that survived

Never grew into a skill; That's a lie


But here he is again; To try and share again

Delve deep a different way; To write a different day

Understanding why; New hobbies that I try 

Are doomed, in short, to die

Thursday, December 8, 2022

Shifting Gears

The fans of the machine humming warmly

The desk lit up without a shadow in sight

Working loud with such internal cacophony

The office silent; keyboard like a gunfight

Headphones injecting power metal within

The chair shaking with each kick of the drum

The sigh of relief as the clock marks the end

Put the laptop to sleep, time to go home

You're done.

Embers

We spend our human life in a state of delay. Always fitting in the joy, rarely fitting in the play. With our passions as bookends to our mor...